Hello again, everyone. I'm sure that many of you have wondered about my lack of activity these past few weeks, and I would like to take this time to explain myself, as well as to inform you of a recent decision that I come to regarding my work.
I was talking to my wife the other day and expressed to her some concerns I am having with my writing. Lately the spark just isn't there. I have no motivation for it anymore, and the act of writing itself had become a chore, hence my lengthy periods between installments. My reasons for writing have shifted over time. At first it was to create closure of a beloved television series for my own sake. Then, when I started dating xXIttlesXx, it became about impressing her. Now that both she and I have tied the knot and have larger responsibilities to attend to, her interests have drifted from my writing. Then it became about you, the fans—impressing you and reading your comments. That's just not right.
I shouldn't be writing for you. I shouldn't even be writing for my wife. I began this because I simply enjoyed doing it. That's what art should be about, self satisfaction. By doing this for anyone other than myself, I have betrayed the very reason that I started in the first place, to make an amazing story. It took the love and support from my dearest to help me realize this, and for that I am grateful.
So for the time being, I have decided that I will no longer write. xXIttlesXx suggested that I go back and read my own work, as well as the enormous mass of books that has collected on my bookshelf, so that maybe I can find the spark I had when I started and remember why I began. I have every intention of coming back and finishing what I started, if only for my pride. It may be months, or quite possibly more than a year, but I will come back. For now though, I need to return to my roots. My current chapters will remain for you to view at your discretion. However, I will not be accepting any new comments. I will still get on dA regularly to spectate others' art and to check my messages. You can still comment on my profile or send me a note if you'd like to contact me. I will post a journal upon my return, but for now, I'll simply say, peace out!